i'm still stupid~!

i know the truth...

i still believe the fake...

i know something has changed,

but i can't accept the changes...

i know it's always me alone awaits,

but i still wait and awaiting...

somehow~

i still can't make myself awake

i know all this is just my imagination

alone in my own world...

it seems i can't get it over me yet,

i realize...

the harder i want to change it,

the weirder the situation goes...

no matter how hard i said to myself,

no matter how hard...

i should not let the past repeat again~

but, it still appears exactly the same

just like a tape rewinding,

only on different place with different people...

2 years ago...

1 year ago...

few months back...

and finally now~

is always the same!!!

I'm STILL STUPID!!!

i've tried to give my trust...

but somehow,

never been appreciated,

often taken for granted...

i try to persuade myself to look on the bright side

but still the dark clouds are always with me

never let me go~

i'm sort of TRAPPED...

trapped in the world of lies...

someone told me before~

sometimes people lies for the good

but what i've got with me

is always the lies that turns out to hurt me even worst

so do YOU now~

i'm not sure if you are telling lies

or is it the truth...

i really hope what you've told me is true

'coz i'm tired of all the lies already

i really don't understand

why i just couldn't be like others

be like them...

feels appreciated and at least are enjoying

i didn't really have the chance to be the real me

all i've been doing all this while...

is just like an acting...

of a liveless playdoll in everyone's live

i thought i could be the real me in front of you

but now it seems, you are turning me down too...

i rather know all the truth that may hurt me...

i don't want to be the stupid one

being played in all the drama of life

doesn't realize the real situation that mostly other knew

staying in the blurr vision

couldn't see the reality

i've got enough about everything

i had too much that i'm trying to overcome

just the truth is what i'm asking for now~

before...i thought you are my place to rely on

but now...i'm not sure about it

maybe it has been my worries

i do hope nothing has change

hope it's just me that has been thinking on the wrong side

please...i couldn't stand all this suffering anymore

i'm trying hard to escape from the past

i hope you're not gonna repeat it for me...

NO MORE!!!