trying to get over...

all those that has happen

the real hard times

i guess it's time to let it go

TOTALLY~

maybe i've been wasting my time

thinking and regretting

reviewing all the unhappy times

locked myself in for the suffering

many of my youth is wasted for the unnecessary

though i know it's not worth-it

but i had wasted it too...

so now the best getaway that i can give to myself

is to create more opportunities

worship myself and make it even awesome days ahead

to start of with a new leaf

i'd join into things that i've never try before

modelling and shooting~

through this event that i've join,

i'd learn much more important things

especially friendship that is build

looking thru' the times i've had

knowing a new bunch of friends,

each and every from different personality

getting advices from some or cheering for each other

it makes me SMILE so broad

all over again...

it might have been a way of acting out the expression

but behind the scene

the fun and cooperation that we had

is the true smile that could lit up my face so much!!

^______________________________^

we are, at the very second, a total stranger to each other

but later on, by the end of the day

we turns out to be so closed as if we known each other for years

that's the best part and i did not feel a lil' of regret also

thx for the chance that's been given to me

thx for the time and the guidance

with more experience

i want to change the view of my life

i want to create many more great chapters in my book of life

like i've promise to myself before

i'll undertake more challenge in future,

i'm not going to hide under obscurity anymore

'coz i know i could be more decent than i'm now

not easily discouraged by the hurricane that had struck my days

i will work my way towards rainbow and the happy sunshine

^^

i'm still stupid~!

i know the truth...

i still believe the fake...

i know something has changed,

but i can't accept the changes...

i know it's always me alone awaits,

but i still wait and awaiting...

somehow~

i still can't make myself awake

i know all this is just my imagination

alone in my own world...

it seems i can't get it over me yet,

i realize...

the harder i want to change it,

the weirder the situation goes...

no matter how hard i said to myself,

no matter how hard...

i should not let the past repeat again~

but, it still appears exactly the same

just like a tape rewinding,

only on different place with different people...

2 years ago...

1 year ago...

few months back...

and finally now~

is always the same!!!

I'm STILL STUPID!!!

i've tried to give my trust...

but somehow,

never been appreciated,

often taken for granted...

i try to persuade myself to look on the bright side

but still the dark clouds are always with me

never let me go~

i'm sort of TRAPPED...

trapped in the world of lies...

someone told me before~

sometimes people lies for the good

but what i've got with me

is always the lies that turns out to hurt me even worst

so do YOU now~

i'm not sure if you are telling lies

or is it the truth...

i really hope what you've told me is true

'coz i'm tired of all the lies already

i really don't understand

why i just couldn't be like others

be like them...

feels appreciated and at least are enjoying

i didn't really have the chance to be the real me

all i've been doing all this while...

is just like an acting...

of a liveless playdoll in everyone's live

i thought i could be the real me in front of you

but now it seems, you are turning me down too...

i rather know all the truth that may hurt me...

i don't want to be the stupid one

being played in all the drama of life

doesn't realize the real situation that mostly other knew

staying in the blurr vision

couldn't see the reality

i've got enough about everything

i had too much that i'm trying to overcome

just the truth is what i'm asking for now~

before...i thought you are my place to rely on

but now...i'm not sure about it

maybe it has been my worries

i do hope nothing has change

hope it's just me that has been thinking on the wrong side

please...i couldn't stand all this suffering anymore

i'm trying hard to escape from the past

i hope you're not gonna repeat it for me...

NO MORE!!!

brand new year...brand new me^^

happy new year!!!

maybe its a lil' too late...

coz its already 3 Jan 2011 now...

A NEW ME...^^

with short fringe~

(i dunno why i cannot upload photo here..)

with the 'NEW' me...

i'm gonna create a great year ahead...

forget all the unhappy pass...

i know there are more great adventure ahead

EMYLY~

you can do it...!

my new year days...

i'm enjoying with my family...

2 days in a row...

~shopping-spree~

i never knew my mum and sis could shops

they really shop till drop on the 1st and 2nd jan...

even i give up following them around

where i finally stop down,

join my dad at McD to wait for them...

huhuhu..my leg really hurts!!

its has been long since we're out shopping together

i should say round a year...

'coz i've been busy with works

really appreciate them time i had with them

enjoying shopping together...

look for the best food in town

(found great food in jln alor)

yummy~!!!

back to study...

its just another life cycle

coming back to college,

and the 1st thing i know~ 

no water supply!!!

duhh....

i've to walk down to 3rd floor to take bath

really tiring,

and lucky for me today morning,

i've just done taking my bath and the water stops...

couldn't imagine whats gonna happen

if i'm half way thru shampoo-ing...

rush down to another toilet with shampoo on my body

hahahah...it must be the most hilarious thing i'm gonna do for this new year!!!

after all classes go well on this 1st day...

guess there's gonna be much difference now

'coz i'm not attending every class with my gurlz anymore...

so i need to get use to mingle with another group

and most of all

IMY...

i'm waiting to see you

but it seems to be hard,

we don't even have a single class together...

hurrmmm....

anyway...

i will try my best to all this new things

I CAN DO IT!!!
^^