we are all the same,
but we don't look the same
it has been so long
finally for this moment to be here
if you guys have been all deniable
why didn't sounded it up earlier?
all this while i did asked
all this while i try to blend in
again...and...again
but what i get finally
is my FAULT!
having problems with me
but only voice it out behind me
GREAT!
now on the very last day
the very last minute only that you guys finally say out
where i ends up a total bastard here
the one who made everything goes wrong
the one that did not participate
the one that always give excuses
the one pretend to be very busy
the one that never sacrifice
the one that never contribute
it's ok if thats what i've been
a total TROUBLEMAKER
i know i've changed
i know i did mistake
i know sometimes i really didn't give my best
but how about you guys?
what in your eyes its always correct
but didn't you know?
you guys changed too
you guys did mistake too
do you guys know i'm hurt in the same time
do you guys think on my point first before any decision?
do you guys realize the real problem?
keep on saying i didn't contribute,
keep on mentioning i'm not sacrificing
keep on saying i'm selfish
but how do you expect me to be?
when everything you guys have in mind
which i'm always the last to know
i'm always the last and not able to give my opinion
never have a space to speak-out
later blamed for not being there...
how loudly you guys said on planning time
how we need to place which is important
how you guys are so tired and only you guys sacrificed
HOW ABOUT ME?!
every time when i try to ask on details
no one inform me
every time i try to ask if help needed
no one speaks a word
every time i try to ask for notice
no one remembers me
so...?
blaming me then is the best you guys can do
WELL DONE!!!
you guys made it to be the BEST ONE!
you guys made it to be the BEST ONE!
you guys are the HERO OF THE DAYS!!
and thanks for forgetting me
thank you so much for putting the blame on me
thanks for telling me ONLY NOW!!!
thank you for everything
and finally...
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY 'GREAT FRIENDS'
now i know...
now i realize...
all this while is me
the wrong, the idiot, the fool, the worst,
the parasite, the disaster
the burden for all of you
..........................................................................
='(
never had a worst day than today
but all i can do ...
take all the blame
and stays quiet~
