..........

we are all the same,

but we don't look the same

it has been so long

finally for this moment to be here

if you guys have been all deniable

why didn't sounded it up earlier?

all this while i did asked

all this while i try to blend in

again...and...again

but what i get finally

is my FAULT!

having problems with me

but only voice it out behind me

GREAT!

now on the very last day

the very last minute only that you guys finally say out

where i ends up a total bastard here

the one who made everything goes wrong

the one that did not participate

the one that always give excuses

the one pretend to be very busy

the one that never sacrifice

the one that never contribute

it's ok if thats what i've been

a total TROUBLEMAKER

i know i've changed

i know i did mistake

i know sometimes i really didn't give my best

but how about you guys?

what in your eyes its always correct

but didn't you know?

you guys changed too

you guys did mistake too

do you guys know i'm hurt in the same time

do you guys think on my point first before any decision?

do you guys realize the real problem?

keep on saying i didn't contribute,

keep on mentioning i'm not sacrificing

keep on saying i'm selfish

but how do you expect me to be?

when everything you guys have in mind

which i'm always the last to know

i'm always the last and not able to give my opinion

never have a space to speak-out

later blamed for not being there...

how loudly you guys said on planning time

how we need to place which is important

how you guys are so tired and only you guys sacrificed

HOW ABOUT ME?!

every time when i try to ask on details

no one inform me

every time i try to ask if help needed

no one speaks a word

every time i try to ask for notice

no one remembers me

so...?

blaming me then is the best you guys can do

WELL DONE!!!
you guys made it to be the BEST ONE!

you guys are the HERO OF THE DAYS!!

and thanks for forgetting me

thank you so much for putting the blame on me

thanks for telling me ONLY NOW!!!

thank you for everything

and finally...

THANK YOU FOR BEING MY 'GREAT FRIENDS'

now i know...

now i realize...

all this while is me

the wrong, the idiot, the fool, the worst,

the parasite, the disaster

the burden for all of you

..........................................................................

='(

never had a worst day than today

but all i can do ...

take all the blame

and stays quiet~