lies...

lies...

lies...lies...

that's what you give me

everything you says seems to be real

but sometimes...its too real that i can't even believe it

whenever i try to make myself trust what you say

the truth will always reveal itself to me

now what i can do...

???

i don't think i can bear all this anymore

i've given you times

i've given myself times too...

all this while...i know it always had been me

it was me that blind my own eyes

it was me that often denies the truth

it was me that always chose to look in the false side

i know what i shouldn't, but i chose what i shouldn't

many told me "you're so silly"

i know...but i just can't accept it...

that's why i choose to keep my eyes close,

make my ears deaf when stories about you comes to me

but now~

i've had enough...

first time you lied...it hurts, but i forgived

second time...its like killing, but i gave you another chance

third time now...i feels nothing, i'm just numb

no more heart-bleeding feels, not feeling pains,

no tears flowing down

it's just NOTHING~

is like something that might happen sooner or later i guess

you may say i'm a coward

but...sorry, i don't think i could handle this anymore...

i've sacrificed a lot...

all my patience and care and time

you just make me feel...its all wasted!

its all worthless for i've put on someone like you that never appreciate

worthless!!! 

i rather keep all to myself,

share it with others

rather than giving all to you, where you treat it like a glass of water

pouring it out...like its nothing important,

i'm too tired to make everything continue

too tired...to act as if i'm not jealous,

too tired...to pretends that i'm ok but i'm not

i should stop you from hurting me anymore

making myself to hold-on to this relation,

its going to be my biggest mistake if i do continues

its just seem tough...and like something-that-never-will-happen

i wanna wake myself up from this so-called sweet dream,

which basically was a nightmare...

a nightmare that kills me slowly

i've no more ideas on how to make you realise,

on how to tell you that you should have appreciate me more

for now~ everything is already too late

maybe, me letting-go is gonna be the best for you

you could do whatever you want,

you don't have anymore hard time to think of ways to hide from me

cause now, you are totally free

i'm not gonna burden your life anymore

~~~