adventure days~~

been so long since i've updated here...

only recently when i've post up some unhappy stuff

but now is time to rewind for few moments~

some story to tell here,
some story to bright up my days again,
coz' i don't wanna stay in dull days anymore...

i wanna share out~
paths i've gone thru that had my days,

from the busy days in producing our drama

to having a company trip to CHINA

a walk round S'PORE

and finally ends up stuck here in JB~

couldn't have much rest since final exam ends...

during this busy terms...i've done few that i had regret

but somehow i'm able to stand up again

though till now still couldn't feel much better

but all i know is to find a way out

no more hiding~

so now...rewinding some happy memories

could help to lit up my days...

at least it can help to make my lips curves up a lil'

rather than keeping it lifeless without smile =)

to begin a story now...

i couldn't say it as "Once upon a time....'

hahahah xDDD 

but it is once a upon a few months time...

the adventure that i had which change some point of views in my life...

our production crew MILKYWAY~
this is our 1st time where we are totally devoted to our drama...
immediately after our finals
every members gather around to gear up another piece of great story
this time we've try to make a different genre...
our drama is about a double personality person
details of story...soon will be here,
hehehe
-now it's a secret-
we spent days and nights
nearly all change to pandas
every single moment we had is all about shooting
but the best part was the time we spent together
3 weeks together
wiping out our sweat~
rushing around~
laugh out and cheer when the production complete shooting~
and finally sending each and every member home~~
our bond are closer, tighter, a BIG HAPPY FAMILY
we do fight and argued during the hard times
but we still appreciate every member...
missing of either one and we will never be complete~
looking back...
there's a lot that we had never do before but we tried
we are brave peeps!! XDD
we sneak into police stations trying to get some shoots
to complete night scene, we stayed up till round 3am outdoor
no one around but only us~
those times..i will forever cherished...
as now, our lovely Director Zet...
she's going thru a exchange students course at Thailand for one semester
we gonna miss her a lot~
she do gives us a lot of power and encouragement
so ZET!!! please come bck ASAP!!

-some of our time-

okay~!!
next station...China...
this is my first time to go oversea
thanks to my boss for the sponsor on flight ticket and hotel
really give me a chance to a new place
Gui Lin, where i've visited...
is a simple town but with very beautiful scene
4 days 3 night adventure is amazing
->w< tired too-
but its great there...
finding different culture of people
experiencing their way of life
really an open-eyes adventure...
visited many scenic places
tasting local dishes
mingling with the people around
is really great~
every single moment i had at Gui Lin can only be describe with
FUN and EXCITING~!!
- except for 1 single prob -
my phone got stolen when i were at a night market =(
bad of luck that day...
 hope there's gonna be chance where i can go to other places to... ^^

= the enjoyment =

too many pics...could't upload all
welcome to browse at my fb =)
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000428293436

ok ok...
now we fly to Singapore..
well...at S'pore it's just a short trip
few hours trip..hahaha
just a few round,
a visit to Sentosa, Gold Coast and their Merlion area..
in a month time...and i'm out to 2 different country =)
- though s'pore is just near -
but yeah!!
it's fun...
and i can really see the differences
so now...time to save more money,
next destination Bali~~~
ehehehehe XDDD

and the best time ever is celebrating birthdays for two friends of mine!
their 21st birthday...
really miss birthday parties...
on June 12..ejia's birthday..
oohh..this is a lovely day
we change our way of celebrating other than sing K
we went for natural....to hot spring Sungai Klah
though only 5 of us are able to make it
but we did have a great time again
being together with schoolmates
is always the time i've been waiting for
ever since each and everyone got separated to different directions
to find a time and gather around is hard
so every time we have a chance, we will not miss it~ ^^

happie 21st birthday Ejia...older now =P

the next is birthday boy Yoong Yang~!!
YY 21st party at home...
seeing him with his birthday cake and friends around wishing...
make me miss a birthday party so much~
it's already 2 years since i last have my own birthday cake for my birthday
nearly forget how is the feel of blowing off candles on a cake
i wish i could have a bunch of friends like him to celebrate my birthday too
held a birthday party, with my friends around wishing
is just a simple happiness that ca make me smile non stop for weeks
but i guess this year birthday will be just the same
a lil' feel of loneliness again~~
haish..
why i mention this,
i should mention how wonderful the party at YY house...
ya...bout YY's party..
he had all his friends from primary till now to join,
that feeling is really great...
though i just meet him few times but it seems to be ages..
he's such a friendly guy~
he make everyone feels special and happy
really gonna appreciate a friend like him
never gonna lose a friend like him =)

happy 21st birthday YY..
big guy already and totally legal now...
hahahaha...can't wait to hang out with you again =)

well...for now~!
i promise myself to look to brighter sides..
no matter how hard days can be
i still need to be strong
i have more wonderful people around me
my family and friends...
I Love All of You..
You can really make my days
muackss~ ;)

burping out~~

i'm here...

that's what can't be change anymore

i've been here working under good heart

but threaten like i've owed the world for you

but it's ok!
i know no matter how i felt regret

no matter how i felt sad

no matter how i felt despised 

in 2 weeks time all this is gonna end..!

i hate to say, 

but i know i've done wrongly in some part

but so do YOU~

you've once told me not to judge things only by my own view

but do you practice it too..?

do you know how bad have you hurt me?

do you know how you've nearly made me loss a friend?

do you know not only you will felt unwell?

do you know you've hurt more than 1 heart?

NO...you don't

if you do...you won't continue with all the nonsense

you won't give me so many hard times

i came to help out under request

i came though i know life here would be hard

but i never knew you could make it even harder

i really don't understand

have you get a proper sense of maths?

do you need me to draw a table for you to calculate?

how could you cut my salary for doubles?

this is the 1st time ever i heard,

"if u didn't work on the public holidays, then i have to cut your salary double also, because i need to pay it to the person that will replace you...if not then it'll be unfair to me...."

hello~!!

i do stop working earlier and paying doubles only if i do work on holidays...

to replace 3 days of my early stop...i sacrifice the off days

i need the money..for your information DESPERATELY!!!

but now you telling me this...

what on earth is this rule?!

u should have jz pay me a full month salary

that's totally the way!

but you giving me all this excuses...

for what???

money really matters too you huh?!

so it's same for ME!!!

i could compromise with all those no-laptop-allow stuff

but this?!!

and you don't even think about what i've try to explain to you

you just continue with your mindset to cut my salary

i could have sue you for this,

even my friends told me so..

but i never want things to be in such a mist

i've grown tired to debate with you anymore...

since i've hold on for one and half month now

i will just keep this as a misfortune to me this time

a reminder for myself on how selfish you are

2 weeks from now and i could break free

i won't ask anymore from you

i won't speak one more word extra other than job

this will be my first and LAST TIME

helping you out...

sorry for being rude...but i could not hold on anymore respect to you

you're just lucky for both of us are kind enough to help you out

in future, i'm not sure if you could find any like us anymore

but if you do too...

i guess there's another heart you going to hurt

soon...if there's a chance

you will realize this,

you might have the opportunity to wake up from your own happy-lil'-world

it's not me...but YOU!!!

it's been a month now, 

but i can honestly say...

not a single day i had in this whole month passed worthy!

i might really have dragged myself into misery

coz' i couldn't have felt even worst than now~

i know i'm not suppose to judge anything,

but you really had me to the MAX...

it is such an obvious shown,

between us

the way you react, the way you treat

i might have just kept quiet

keep going in silence for another month

coz' i don't wanna make things uncomfortable~

YOU can have your own thoughts in doing things...

your thoughts sometimes are right

but please...please think deeper

there's a lot that you've done is totally loser way!!

i didn't take things for granted

i didn't done anything wrong

but you keep on saying what that's in your thoughts

never considerate what i've tell you

one shot blaming me and only me!!

why not her??

like now, the condition here...

i couldn't stay a total dumb doing nothing!

you should come here and try to sit still ALL ALONE!!!

try to feel what i feel

please don't judge it from your own sight only

i did think you are a capable person

but now...

NO MORE!!

i really don't understand it

but one thing i know for sure...

you both are the same species!

care only of your own benefit

not a single thought on others feeling~

from the actions that both of you've done...

which are a total WRONG!

but you didn't care even a single point...

when it's me...?

a bomb!! 

i'm doomed~~

the reason i really made it here is to help

but now...

i'm being treat as a junk...

as a toy...

as a substitute...

if whatever that i did is such a pierce in your eyes

it's really gonna make things harder!

i've plan to even end things here earlier...

not to bother a single nonsense anymore

but i didn't...

i don't want to give you any hard time~

so please...don't give me hard time tooo!!!

it's just a matter of respect left now

others...no more

!!!

大家来分享~~ =) 礼物的含义：

1。 围巾 - 我永远爱你。

2。 信 - 我想念你。

3。 花儿 - 我希望把我的名字放在你的心上。

4。 书 - 我相信你很聪明。

5。 口香糖 - 我希望跟你交往得很久。

6。 香烟 - 我讨厌你。

7。 本子 - 我希望看你的天真的爱情。

8。 戒指 - 你永远属于我的。

9。 伞 - 我在任何情况下都要保护你。

10。 发夹 - 希望你的成功。

11。 镜子 - 你别忘记我。

12。 项链 - 我要你在我身边。

13。 巧克力 - 我爱你。

14。 打火机 - 你是我的初恋,你和他的感情一触即燃。

15。 圆珠笔 - 我给你我的心的一半儿。

16。 钥匙装饰品 - 我希望你的幸运。

17。 粘贴补(album) - 把我们的爱情珍藏在我的心。

18。 钢笔 - 把我们的爱情珍藏在我的心。

19。 触觉娃娃 - 希望你真实一点。

20。 吉物 - 我想跟你做个朋友。

21。 手套 - 希望你真实。

22。 手帕 - 我等待分手以后再相遇。

23。 睡衣 - 我给你我的全部。

24。 日记本 - 我希望把我们两个人的回忆珍藏在心

25. 钱包-代表你愿永伴他身旁

26. 皮带-代表栓住他一辈子

27. 剃须刀-代表他在你心中是优秀的成熟男性

28. 相册-永远珍藏你和我的回忆

29. 千纸鹤:希望我和你的爱情有个美好的结局.

30. 送手表，代表你和他像拥有分分秒秒的感情

31. 送领带，表示你把他套牢了让他永远在你身边不离开

送女朋友：

1.戒指，代表爱你到心里，情愿为你的爱而受戒

2.项链，代表将你紧紧锁住，希望你的心里面只有他一个人，没有其它的异性

3.手镯，代表除了想圈住你以外，还暗示了他只疼爱你一个人

4.手链，代表想绑住你一辈子

5.脚链，代表栓住今生，系住来世，希望来生还能在一起

玫瑰的含义：

红玫瑰代表热情真爱；

黄玫瑰代表珍重祝福和嫉妒失恋；

紫玫瑰代表浪漫真情和珍贵独特；

白玫瑰代表纯洁天真；

黑玫瑰则代表温柔真心；

橘红色玫瑰友情和青春美丽；

蓝玫瑰则代表敦厚善良。

花的含义：

蔷薇——求爱

满天星——爱怜

百合——百年好和

向日葵——爱慕

合欢——欢乐

金盏花——迷恋

红豆——相思

石斛兰——任性美人

红菊——我爱

紫丁香——羞怯

白丁香——念我

郁金香——爱的寓言

杨柳枝——依恋

紫萝兰——永恒之美

波斯菊——永远快活

玛格丽特——情人爱

巧克力的含义：

榛子巧克力——忠贞

果仁巧克力——可人

酒心巧克力——与你共醉

奶香巧克力——我的蜜糖

1.手表 - 天天见，时时见，分分秒秒见，分分秒秒陪着你， 表是另外形式是钟，扩大的想就是钟情于你了哦， 手表还可以结实为和时间相处啊， 时间也是你们需要的东西吧，时间看清楚你们是否相爱啊

2. 风铃 - 如果你是男孩子，女孩子送你风铃的话 那就意味着……分手。 其实风铃还有思念、想念的意义。 不过最好不要随便送人风铃。 总归意义不太好， 自己买给自己倒是可以 挂在通风的房间里有种忧郁的幸福感伤

3.打火机 - 打火机代表火, 火代表激情 代表暗恋

4.围巾 - 缠住他/她 ，给他/她温暖,表示你的关心 ，是一种温心,细腻,大方的示爱手段

5.杯子 - 辈子

6.手套 - 逃不出她他的掌心

7.梳子 - 是一种心意! 1.梳子代表相思,代表着对方很想念很挂念你! 2.梳子每天都梳理头发也代表着它与你的密切性,代表着白头携老! 3.梳子还代表爱情,古代一般有做定情的意思! 4.梳子也代表健康,快乐! 把烦恼一扫而过,把心结打开,而且梳头会给人精神,带给人自信!

送礼物给异性的含义:

1.送男士香水表示你在她心目中是有品位的，她渴望和你进一步接触。

2.送钱夹，钥匙连随身小物应该是情侣之间爱意表达，希望时时伴你左右，让你每时每刻想起她。

3.送剃须刀代表你在她心中是优秀的成熟男性。

4.送贴身衣物（内裤，袜子）都比较暧昧，这是一种亲密调情，类似动物圈领地，表明你是她的人。

5.送你喜爱的特殊礼品（篮球，动漫模型，书），代表她对你有好感，同样希望博得你的好感。

6.送你毛衣，牛仔裤，运动鞋，说明她是真的爱你，已进开始代替你妈妈料理你的生活了！

7.打火机：初恋 恋爱、相爱

8.糖：我喜欢你

9.口香糖：想与你分享缠绵的爱

9.巧克力：想与你分享甜蜜的爱

10.玩偶：抱抱我

11.戒指：你是我的

12.花：想跟你在一起

13.镜子：想得到你的心

14.领带夹：想要给你爱

15.枕头：想和你一起过夜

16.睡衣：付出我的一切

17.吻：爱上了你

18.钱包：比起钱，你对我来说更重要

19.纸鹤：我们彼此之间的爱会实现的

20.腰带：不要离开我

21.手表：不要在约会的时候迟到哦

22.帽子：永远爱你

23.头巾：永远爱你

24.鸽子：521 我爱你

25.毛巾：永远的记住我

26.日记本：请成为我生命的一部份

27.脚链：你跑不掉喽

28.钢笔：祝你成功

29.钥匙链：祝你幸运

30.纸星星：365天祝福

不好的含义：

摩托车：你能快点死就好了

烟：真的很讨厌你、狠透你了

领带：真想勒死你

橡皮：你可真讨厌，我要用橡皮把你蹭掉~~！

分手、离别：

剪刀：我们分手吧

袜子：想与你保持一段距离

围脖：我们离别吧

相册：请保存好我们之间的回忆

钢笔水：不要抹去我们之间的回忆

图画：想永远的珍藏我们的回忆

其他：

书：给你一点时间，好好想想

玩具：希望你能对我更真实一点

木梳：请整洁一点

化妆品：你很美丽

圆珠笔：你好啊

蜡：实现不了的爱

水晶紀念意義，不同颜色的水晶所代表的意义：

无色水晶：代表纯洁、无私、能提升人的灵气，驱除杂念

紫色水晶：代表浪漫、姻缘、颜色高贵

黄色水晶：代表财富、鸿运

茶色水晶：代表稳健、安泰

绿色水晶：代表正义、发展

绿幽灵水晶：代表财路正、事业兴

白幽灵水晶：代表清净，供灵修

红幽灵水晶：代表事业发达，财运兴旺

金发晶：至美、至尊

红发晶：热烈、活泼

黄发晶：红火、兴旺

黑发晶：偏财、解厄

绿发晶：幸福、好运

银发晶：材旺、辟邪

金字塔水晶：聚集能量、趋吉避凶

水胆水晶：神奇、灵异

couldn't help...but felt left-out

i know...

sometimes not everything should be in my concern

i know...

i'm not worth to be the busybody one

but do you know...

the way you behave

the way you make things be

really hit me hard in the heart,

Sometimes, you might not realize,

but actually you already hurt someone's feeling

if you are not happy with what i did or didn't

please do tell..~

don't purposely behave in some ways to ignore me

don't act as if i'm invisible

don't show me faces when i don't even know what's wrong

'coz all this make me feel totally alienated

if that's really what u wanna let me know

then, all i can say is CONGRATS 

you finally able to make me feel like a total dumb

doesn't know whats happening around

which basically problem wasn't actually from me

in a milisecond makes me feel like i'm a weirdo

and directing things upside down

makes me felt even worst than ever

i really have this single thought

whether if i made the right step introducing you to the things now

for what i can see is that 

you made me feel bad enough to blame myself as a stupid one~!!!

spectacular moments...

been away for a hectic week...

a short escapade  to UUM~

joining a red-carpet event,

meeting different stage of society...

from students to great actors and  directors,

learned new skills and info

from the eye of successful people...

is really something to worship for,

something that help leading me towards a better one~

in these few days too,

i witnessed many that gives impact to me

such as the hard work and spirit of doing things...

really can make a different

heading to a greater self!!

the opportunity that we had there,

is really an eye-open reality experience

gonna move on with all the support

and the Best PSA Award that we won...

is a title that give us the power and spirit

to produce even greater production in the future...~

LUV U GUYS AND GALS...!!!

~xoxoxoxoxo~

oh ya...~

we had an interview with Putra FM

is a great experince too...

discussing on our video,

encouraging others to produce better production

giving support to each and everyone

especially to our production

MILKYWAY~

we could do even better in our future...

we are targeting for more awards...

more confirmation...

more success...

for we will try to be the best~

ON TOP OF THE LIST!!!

yeah...

o(^.^)o

way to 'unknown'...

a new 'unknown' way i'm going towards now~

a place i tends to go once before too...

heading to UUM,

with heart beating nervously...

might be an exciting journey, or a waste

but i wanted to learn more from it too...

our 1st production

a whole lot of hard work

learning ways to deal the real life situation

is now halfway towards a confirmation...

we tried our best to overcome all the obstacle,

and we gave the best we could..

so now...

no matter what's result gonna be,

MILKYWAY...

we learned and we could be better in future...

we pray hard for the best...

no matter we made it or not,

still i have a great group here..!!

alright...keep our finger cross for the result ya~!!

o(^.^)o

been busy....on and off~

huhuhu...just realize my last post was so long time ago~~
really been stuck with many recently
since the day i'm back from holiday till now,
not much time that i totally had rest
except for the time when i'm sick >w<
many that i want to share out here...
too many that i had gone thru for the pass 3 week!!
hurm...where to begin?
aarghh...way too many to share out
i'll just summarize everything...~
easy job..^^v


~1st Stop~
immediately after CNY...i had my first video shoot
it's for my course assignment
for the sake of perfection in a 3min PSA
we spent a solid whole week for it
obstacles coming 1 by 1
1-we prepare so many letter (application for location, actor) which finally turns out
we didn't use any of it. Location changed! Actor changed! 
2-camera setting went wrong on our 1st shoot so we re-do every shoot the next day
3-location prob...we had to find a new similar place in 2 hour time, and it's only for 
our last scene...seriously terrible...
4-facing problem with the editing PC, which we spent 5 hour wasted waiting to use the PC
and finally end up editing with our lappie...
5-format for the video turns out not in widescreen..and we had to recheck every single 
format again...waste another day..
6-format problem settle, but then the DVD we burnt can't be read...
PISSED OFF~!!!
lucky we able to complete it too finally..
and that's what people say
behind a good production, there's always hardwork...
and we can feel this...totally HARD..!
anyhow...MILKYWAY PRODUCTION THE BEST!!!

~2nd Stop~
there's this high dinner for college
and we are going to perform a modern dance that night...
so it's been busy time practicing too...
wow~~~ the steps are sort of hard...
coz i miss few practices already due to my busy-ness in video
dance it...move it...
T-ara's Ya-ya-ya, SNSD's Hoot & Gee, 4 Minutes's Radio...
those steps...are sexy...twist and twist...
hope the performance on this sunday gonna be good...
break a leg gurlz~!! ^^


~3rd Stop~
MGM assignment...
warghh...another big bunch of paperwork...
but we had fun, went for a group-shopping at The Mines
got scolded from the worker at Giant coz we took photo
haish...crazy fella~
but we love the product we made..
yummy~!

~4rd Stop~
it's a early celebration for eng eng's birthday..^^
also the 1st time the 4 sweetheart are complete after CNY
we move around all the time
time square>low yat>sungei wang>time square
huhu...really a whole day off walking
too bad we didn't make it for karaoke
coz it's way so expensive~~~ >w<
(p/s:well , it's public holiday...)
somehow, somewhere we found ways to spend our time together

~5th Stop~
Karaoke-ing time...!!!
yippie!!
it's friday and to fulfill eng eng's wish to sing k
so we go lor...hehehehe =)
few hours releasing stress...
is never other best way than this...just luv it...!!
muaxxx gurlz... 

~6th Stop~

i've been down with headache. stomachache

vomiting and coughing...

fever and flu~~~ 

it's just everything...i'm so sick for this whole week!!

couldn't have much rest too...wobbling around the way i go

hardly had time to stop down,

but thanx for all the concern from me gurlz and friends...

i try to overcome all the sickness monster

struggle to classes and complete assignment

continue with dance practice and test around the corner...

could say i'm much better now though still not 100%

but i'll be ok...

=))

aiyyaaaaa....i have much more to share out,

but i got to go...

need to prepare for upcoming test on monday...

and practice for this sunday performance

wish me the best ok guys and gals.... ^^

see ya~~~ 

CNY around...event all the round~

holiday is here already~

is the time i've been waiting for

after all the hard work of shopping and planning

finally i can wear on those new cloth

moving around door to door

in-search fo...ANGPAUssss...~

woohooooo~

 but the best part...

i had early reunion with my friends!!!
steamboat dinner

eating till stomach gonna burst

laughing till the mouth could even split

i really miss the fun we had...

really laugh so hard i could feel every eye on us

hahahaha XDDDD...

why can we be so crazy???
thanks to dear yannie and da jie lu...~
so BLUE~
sot sot...anything oso can turn out d other way round

the gang~
laugh till you die!!!
but what we ate that day...
can actually let us survive for few in college...
ate like we had be in hunger for weeks >w<
so fat ad.......!!!

start cooking, table clear...
after some hours...~

the disaster we made!!!

hahaha...we cleared away the mess~
for jon's 2nd round
but yeah...that nite was so much fun
the next time will be???
soon i hope~^^


my cousins came back on 30th,
and i'm the tour guide for them on 31st
all the way full-timer
klang-subang jaya-sunway lagoon-kl sentral-ipoh
wah...so tired, exhausted...
due to rainy day, can't make it into theme park early
so we went ice-skating 1st^^
huhuhu...i don't know ho to skate!!!
but i skated...yeah!!!
FUN~!
but the worst part was...
i got knock down, TWICE and butt first onto the floor...
wargh!!!
it really hurts...
thanks to the kiddo...

ooh...~
then they move on to the lagoon after or pizza lunch
...leaving me alone...
loitering around, window shopping, watching people
and finally i give up, went for a movie
'Shaolin'
the movie is nice...^^ thrilled
but half way thru...i came out...
why???
coz bie came~
hehehe^^
finally he come...though it's late already
but still he made it to come..
thanks bie~
spending the last hour i had at sunway with you at starbucks...
weeee~~~
thanx for the lava chips babe...^^

ok ok...time to go back home already~
saying bubye to you~
walking away and not going to see you for a week
gonna miss you
wait for me ya...
i'm going to be back by 2pm on 7th...


route to kl sentral...walking is really tiring
took taxi, walk around and ate dinner
spending round 1 hour there before the train depart...
the moment i sat down on the couch...
i doozed off~
no word can describe it...
i hardly can open my eye when the train about to arrive ipoh
but the moment i touch foot on the station
i know i will enjoy the whole week i have here
coz event is lining up
fully plan for the days i'm going to spend here...
^^v

trying to get over...

all those that has happen

the real hard times

i guess it's time to let it go

TOTALLY~

maybe i've been wasting my time

thinking and regretting

reviewing all the unhappy times

locked myself in for the suffering

many of my youth is wasted for the unnecessary

though i know it's not worth-it

but i had wasted it too...

so now the best getaway that i can give to myself

is to create more opportunities

worship myself and make it even awesome days ahead

to start of with a new leaf

i'd join into things that i've never try before

modelling and shooting~

through this event that i've join,

i'd learn much more important things

especially friendship that is build

looking thru' the times i've had

knowing a new bunch of friends,

each and every from different personality

getting advices from some or cheering for each other

it makes me SMILE so broad

all over again...

it might have been a way of acting out the expression

but behind the scene

the fun and cooperation that we had

is the true smile that could lit up my face so much!!

^______________________________^

we are, at the very second, a total stranger to each other

but later on, by the end of the day

we turns out to be so closed as if we known each other for years

that's the best part and i did not feel a lil' of regret also

thx for the chance that's been given to me

thx for the time and the guidance

with more experience

i want to change the view of my life

i want to create many more great chapters in my book of life

like i've promise to myself before

i'll undertake more challenge in future,

i'm not going to hide under obscurity anymore

'coz i know i could be more decent than i'm now

not easily discouraged by the hurricane that had struck my days

i will work my way towards rainbow and the happy sunshine

^^

i'm still stupid~!

i know the truth...

i still believe the fake...

i know something has changed,

but i can't accept the changes...

i know it's always me alone awaits,

but i still wait and awaiting...

somehow~

i still can't make myself awake

i know all this is just my imagination

alone in my own world...

it seems i can't get it over me yet,

i realize...

the harder i want to change it,

the weirder the situation goes...

no matter how hard i said to myself,

no matter how hard...

i should not let the past repeat again~

but, it still appears exactly the same

just like a tape rewinding,

only on different place with different people...

2 years ago...

1 year ago...

few months back...

and finally now~

is always the same!!!

I'm STILL STUPID!!!

i've tried to give my trust...

but somehow,

never been appreciated,

often taken for granted...

i try to persuade myself to look on the bright side

but still the dark clouds are always with me

never let me go~

i'm sort of TRAPPED...

trapped in the world of lies...

someone told me before~

sometimes people lies for the good

but what i've got with me

is always the lies that turns out to hurt me even worst

so do YOU now~

i'm not sure if you are telling lies

or is it the truth...

i really hope what you've told me is true

'coz i'm tired of all the lies already

i really don't understand

why i just couldn't be like others

be like them...

feels appreciated and at least are enjoying

i didn't really have the chance to be the real me

all i've been doing all this while...

is just like an acting...

of a liveless playdoll in everyone's live

i thought i could be the real me in front of you

but now it seems, you are turning me down too...

i rather know all the truth that may hurt me...

i don't want to be the stupid one

being played in all the drama of life

doesn't realize the real situation that mostly other knew

staying in the blurr vision

couldn't see the reality

i've got enough about everything

i had too much that i'm trying to overcome

just the truth is what i'm asking for now~

before...i thought you are my place to rely on

but now...i'm not sure about it

maybe it has been my worries

i do hope nothing has change

hope it's just me that has been thinking on the wrong side

please...i couldn't stand all this suffering anymore

i'm trying hard to escape from the past

i hope you're not gonna repeat it for me...

NO MORE!!!

brand new year...brand new me^^

happy new year!!!

maybe its a lil' too late...

coz its already 3 Jan 2011 now...

A NEW ME...^^

with short fringe~

(i dunno why i cannot upload photo here..)

with the 'NEW' me...

i'm gonna create a great year ahead...

forget all the unhappy pass...

i know there are more great adventure ahead

EMYLY~

you can do it...!

my new year days...

i'm enjoying with my family...

2 days in a row...

~shopping-spree~

i never knew my mum and sis could shops

they really shop till drop on the 1st and 2nd jan...

even i give up following them around

where i finally stop down,

join my dad at McD to wait for them...

huhuhu..my leg really hurts!!

its has been long since we're out shopping together

i should say round a year...

'coz i've been busy with works

really appreciate them time i had with them

enjoying shopping together...

look for the best food in town

(found great food in jln alor)

yummy~!!!

back to study...

its just another life cycle

coming back to college,

and the 1st thing i know~ 

no water supply!!!

duhh....

i've to walk down to 3rd floor to take bath

really tiring,

and lucky for me today morning,

i've just done taking my bath and the water stops...

couldn't imagine whats gonna happen

if i'm half way thru shampoo-ing...

rush down to another toilet with shampoo on my body

hahahah...it must be the most hilarious thing i'm gonna do for this new year!!!

after all classes go well on this 1st day...

guess there's gonna be much difference now

'coz i'm not attending every class with my gurlz anymore...

so i need to get use to mingle with another group

and most of all

IMY...

i'm waiting to see you

but it seems to be hard,

we don't even have a single class together...

hurrmmm....

anyway...

i will try my best to all this new things

I CAN DO IT!!!
^^